Scrooge for the holidays
Just in time for the holidays my rent went down and I got some overtime at work. I actually have a small amount of money saved now, and foregoing my female urge to SPEND, I feel like Ebenezer Scrooge, not willing to see the numbers go down. Of course, bills are bound to appear, and God often blesses us with exactly what we need to pay off those unexpected dues. That’s when we cry foul.
I am a naturally anxiety-ridden person. It’s easy to give in to negative feelings and resort to the pessimistic response, “That’s life. Bills are a part of growing up.” Paying bills is like pulling a band aid off. It’s best just to get it done and see what’s left over. I begin to wonder how I will ever pay off student loans if I should decide I want to live somewhere with a higher rent and utilities. Money disappears as quickly as it appears, diminishing excitement and hope. But there are people who need my support, and there are things more important than money.
God blesses us, everyone… just not always in the way we want. I recall my previous blog post about the “plenty” I have to be thankful for. Indeed, God often gives us only what we need for the day, forcing us to have faith and rely upon Him. For example, I just recalled that come January my car will be paid off, which will be an extra $200 a month I can put aside… or use to pay for car repairs. Best to focus on the here and now and not worry about the future too much. I can only change myself based on my current circumstances, who I am, how I can be the best version of myself, and allow God to shape and mold me… set standards for myself, and not fear the perceptions of others. But now I’m getting into another topic entirely. To be continued….